Surrender?

Today’s quick drawing of Mary Magdalene. I had little energy, but still tried to keep my promise.

Dear Saint Mary Magdalene,

I hear that wishes are like seeds, and that persistence, faith and emotion are key to realizing dreams.

There is also, I think, a subtle component to creation that goes beyond planting seeds and keeping at it, and that is so quiet and surprising, that it’s difficult to attain.

I remember one day, sitting front of the 42nd Street New York Public Library, right before quitting my fist job as a teacher (I called in sick that day, I was just 23 years old.) I sat in the stairs, feeling like my whole life was ruined because I was failing at teaching in a Bronx middle school where I was a substitute for a teacher that had been absent for a long time. Watching happier people passing by, I thought: “I wish I had a job in front of a computer…” A few days later, I couldn’t take it anymore and I quit.

And a week later I got a phone call from an editor asking me why I had not told him before that I had quit because he wanted to hire me… to work in front of a computer, using my education skills, and better paid. I knew there was some kind of miracle or magic involved, but I didn’t know what or how it happened.

Mary Magdalene, I really need your help identifying that secret ingredient to simple life miracles. I know I’ve had many, all my life I’ve experienced these wonderful moments, but how do I find again that ability to surrender that was so easy when I was young, and seems so difficult now. Is surrender the key?

I suspect it is. I just need some help confirming.

Thanks for listening. Please guide the way.

Your artist,

Tanya