Magdalene Muses Card Self-Reading: Holy Grail

Tanya Torres
6 days ago
2 min read

I’ve been struggling a lot with exhaustion these past weeks, and so I have not been posting daily as I would have wanted. But today I decided it’s been too long and too much exhaustion in the evenings, so I decided to drink some coffee at 3pm. I know that, for me, that might mean a sleepless night, especially since I haven’t been drinking much coffee beyond the morning for the last 8 years, unless it’s the weekend. It’s part of my sleep discipline. And even though tomorrow I have to work, so far I feel it’s been worth it. I can’t live so much of my life sleeping and working! There is too much I want to do.

Let’s see what Magdalene Muses card I draw based on this strange musing.

“Holy Grail”

“I anoint my soul with love and devotion.”

And inside:

“You restore your inner feminine when you allow yourself too to feel your feelings and trust your heart.”

I never thought of myself needing to restore my inner feminine, but I have to accept that all the energy I need to create for myself in order to do my day job really subtracts from my normal way of being and is probably not feminine. I have had to learn to be the boss. I also have to accept that I often feel the need to fly, quit, escape, desert, be in silence when the stress gets high. And at that time my heart tells me things I don’t quite hear.

“The search for the Holy Grail is your longing to restore the feminine.”

I never thought about that. I never thought that all this energy I create during the day might be feminine or masculine. But I do remember sitting on a masculine energy vortex in Sedona, Arizona, because at that time, that was the balance I needed.

In Louise Hay’s list of diseases and symptoms, I found that the right side of your body is: “Giving out, letting go, masculine energy, men, the father.” The right side of my body is constantly giving me trouble. I have lymphedema in the right leg, my thumb hurts, my foot hurts too in different areas. The pains move around, but never quite leave. When I go back to Sedona, I’ll have to sit on the feminine vortex and ask Mary Magdalene for a miracle.

And sitting there, I will anoint my soul with love and devotion. Self-love. It’s what we all need.

My Holy Grail… the simple life, quiet, creative, connective. I once found it, and lost it. But now I know it exists. I will find it again. And I won’t let it go.